As I get ready for this 3rd and final business trip to Asia of 2011, I’ve had feelings of dread, that alternated when I readGitzand realized I need to choose to enjoy every moment as I live in it. The last post she wrote is about living in the now and not wasting time fantasizing in the unknown. I do this frequently. When I’m uncomfortable in my job, when I’m uncomfortable in my cramped condo, when my kids are behaving outrageously, I fantasize about future unknowns.
It’s not easy enjoying the things that trouble me now, like this last trip to Asia. I’m pregnant, and tired, I don’t want to leave my kids and husband but then I read Philippians 4:6 “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.” I realize I need to fill this trip with thanksgiving and prayer. So I will do this on my trusty iPhone, list all the things I’m thankful for and when I get an internet connection I’ll post them here, starting with the below:
161 – I’m thankful for spontaneous back rubs from husband
162 – A husband who fills my car with gas in the evening
163 – A husband who makes eggs and bacon for breakfast!
164 – Stories my daughter whispers in my ear at bedtime.
165 – 3 yr old who prays her own prayers, our faithfulness is showing fruit
166 – letters from my compassion children
167 – God who has given me a good nights sleep before this trip to Asia. I notoriously sleep badly before trips but last night my dreams were filled with random entertaining things. No stress, no worries. Thank you God for this gift of a good nights sleep.
168 – forGitz, a gifted writer who has blessed my life with every word I read. I’m sad at the thought of her passing because I selfishly want more words of wisdom and I’m sad for her family and friends but so profoundly thankful to have been graced by her kind words for this past year.