Travel Anxiety

When I haven't traveled alone in awhile I get quite a bit of anxiety.  It usually hits me about 3 days before the trip as the list of things I want to accomplish before leaving start to pile up and I get this sudden overwhelming need to cry and blank out at the same time.  It's hard to explain panic and anxiety but it's basically like someone just took a beater to your brain and you're left with scrambled eggs.

I've stopped beating myself up for not having more control over this sudden unwelcome onslaught of anxiety.  When it rears it's ugly head I make a long list of what I want to do, then I prioritize it and remove things that are not absolutely necessary.

Yoga would probably help, but it's just another thing to add to a long list of things I need to get done so it will most likely be pushed aside for other priorities.

Next week I'm going to Fort Lauderdale on Monday, then driving to Orlando for the rest of the week with my co-workers.  I think the only beach I'll see is from the sky but at least I'll be warm!

This is my first trip away from baby in over 6 months and since I'm still breastfeeding it's compounded by needing to bring equipment and find time to pump.  I'm really so over it since she's now 14 months old today but considering she's still so small and we're dealing with continued doctor's appointments, it seems prudent to continue breastfeeding until she's ready to stop.  Just one more thing to throw into the mix but I also tell myself it's probably my last trip to travel with this equipment so that's good!