Monday, September 19, 2011

Thankful

As I get ready for this 3rd and final business trip to Asia of 2011, I’ve had feelings of dread, that alternated when I read Gitz and realized I need to choose to enjoy every moment as I live in it. The last post she wrote is about living in the now and not wasting time fantasizing in the unknown. I do this frequently. When I’m uncomfortable in my job, when I’m uncomfortable in my cramped condo, when my kids are behaving outrageously, I fantasize about future unknowns.
It’s not easy enjoying the things that trouble me now, like this last trip to Asia.  I’m pregnant, and tired, I don’t want to leave my kids and husband but then I read Philippians 4:6 “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.” I realize I need to fill this trip with thanksgiving and prayer. So I will do this on my trusty iPhone, list all the things I’m thankful for and when I get an internet connection I’ll post them here, starting with the below:
  • 161 – I’m thankful for spontaneous back rubs from husband
  • 162 – A husband who fills my car with gas in the evening
  • 163 – A husband who makes eggs and bacon for breakfast!
  • 164 – Stories my daughter whispers in my ear at bedtime.
  • 165 – 3 yr old who prays her own prayers, our faithfulness is showing fruit
  • 166 – letters from my compassion children
  • 167 – God who has given me a good nights sleep before this trip to Asia.  I notoriously sleep badly before trips but last night my dreams were filled with random entertaining things.  No stress, no worries.  Thank you God for this gift of a good nights sleep.
  • 168 – for Gitz, a gifted writer who has blessed my life with every word I read.  I’m sad at the thought of her passing because I selfishly want more words of wisdom and I’m sad for her family and friends but so profoundly thankful to have been graced by her kind words for this past year.

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