Friday, February 05, 2010

Joy mixed with pain

I didn't want to face this day but it happened. The doctor's have confirmed one heartbeat, which means baby B has passed. Yesterday's doctor visit was horrible but we made it to today where we got to visit the risky doctor who showed us Baby A is a BOY and very very healthy, looks great and has a better chance of getting big and healthy. We are very very lucky to have a surviving twin, so many woman face miscarriage and we have a second baby doing well. It's a mixed blessing.

It's been a tough two weeks waiting for today to come but our friends, family and fellow bloggers have made it easier with all their prayers and sweet comments.

It's important for me to remember baby B so I've found a sweet little necklace with a Bee impression in silver and a yellow jewel for the head. I'll wear this to remember my small child.

8 comments:

Grit said...

rachel, i am so very sad to read your news; but the news that baby boy is growing well is so welcome, too.

sometimes these bad things happen, but i believe the way that life turns out means that we can draw positive strengths from sadness; i think that through sad times, we are made stronger, wiser people. those qualities we pass onto our children and send into the future.

i send you and your family many strong thoughts and good wishes.xx

Rachel M. said...

Thanks Grit, always glad to hear from you and get your wisdom. We too are glad there is a healthy boy growing and I'm staying focused on him right now. I feel blessed.

Rachel M. said...

Thanks Grit, always glad to hear from you and get your wisdom. We too are glad there is a healthy boy growing and I'm staying focused on him right now. I feel blessed.

K said...

I'm so sorry for your loss, but I am glad you have a healthy baby boy.

I've really enjoyed having a boy and I hope you do too.

Jeanne said...

Oh, Rachel, I'm so sorry for your loss. Thank goodness for your little boy and his big sister, who can comfort you in your grief.

Rumour Miller said...

I am so very sorry for your loss. Big hugs.

crazywildberry said...

Sorry! I am always so behind the times... I am taking time to read your blogs (All great!) and catch up on what's going on in your life. I love the bee pendant idea. I made me tear up. You are such a sweet mom. I love this side of you. Makes me love you all that much more. As I have written to you before, you are in my thoughts and prayers a lot. This is a tragedy, but you will pull through. It's such a blessing that you have little S on the way. Can't wait to see you... THREE WEEKS!! So, excited, can you tell? Then, I an finally give you that over-due hug. Till then, call or write or IM me or whatever if you need to talk. I love you!

Alicia said...

Thank you for the comment on my blog over a year ago... I'm just seeing it. I'm sorry for your loss but thankful to see a healthy baby boy in photos who is now a year old.